Sometimes I do something or react to something in a bad way and I'll regret it immediately. But then I wonder why I should hide how I really feel? I do not like others to feel uncomfortable because of my mood or how I feel but I think lying to myself and putting up an act is worse, maybe?
Today was one of those days. I think I'm too old to act up especially with friends who matter. But I was tired, upset and just...annoyed? And I felt bad that I made everyone uncomfortable, really. I guess they knew something was wrong but no one had the guts to outrightly ask. At that point I wasn't sure what I wanted. Should I leave and be by myself? Would that make matters worse? I wasn't sure what was the right thing to do. My mood was not getting any better and I didn't know what to do.
Why do I feel disappointed? I'm not sure. Do I have unrealistic expectations? Am I too sensitive? Do I give others the wrong impression?
When someone finally did have the guts to ask me what's wrong, I wasn't sure how to answer. I honestly do not know.
No idea what's wrong with me today. I can't even blame it on pms. But somehow I feel I wasted half a Saturday away. Why?
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