Bohemian rhapsody

I've always been envious of those who have the guts to chase their dreams, or live for their passion.

I recently had a chance to speak to someone of about my age who's never had a solid, stable job but doing freelance all these years. He went to London to study art (lucky him, not all of us have the financial means), realised his forte is in jewelry design, did odd jobs in London, taught Art part-time to A level students, tutored Literature, went to Barcelona with his partner and stayed there for a year conducting adhoc art classes and now works as a freelance designer for a friend's Hong Kong-based clothing label. My boss calls this the "bohemian lifestyle". He's truly been doing what he loves so far, not held back by money or seeking for any financial stability, and just taking things as they come his way. Perhaps he comes from an upper-middle class family which can help finance his lifestyle. If so, how very lucky.

Circumstances unfortunately do not allow me to lead such a "bohemian lifestyle". I have to work, (and work hard) to pay off my student loans, the insurance and bills, and just support myself, in general. I do not consider myself high maintenance, but I like to (ahem) pay for quality and comfort. I do not have loaded parents and I'm not handed supplementary credit cards, so I have to work hard to get what I want. But even if I'm given the chance for a "bohemian lifestyle", what will I do?

At this ripe (old) age of 29, I'm not even sure what my passion is. And chase my dream? What exactly is, my dream? I often ask myself, and find that I do not have an answer. Does this mean my life is somewhat aimless and lacks quality?