Shit got real

I could feel my life slowly unravelling out of my control the moment we stepped into that office. I knew

Unanswered questions, broken hearts

Why are you doing this? What have I done so wrong? Why don't you choose us? I know i keep asking myself these questions quietly at the back of my mind, over and over. I act like it doesn't matter much, when I know in reality that I am slowly crumbling. But not talking about it out loud, not having to listen to all the negativity, is the only way I know to hold myself together. It's the only way I can protect myself. I cannot dwell on this and let this all consume me.

People say her father is a girl's first love. But what if her first love breaks her heart over and over? What if her first love unknowingly betrays her? What if her first love didn't choose her? How can she ever trust another when the man she is to trust most breaks her..?

The knife that cuts deepest

How am I ever supposed to trust another man when the one I should trust most breaks my heart over and over again...? It hurts in a way I cannot explain. It's eating me up and I am sadly allowing it to. I can't look you in the eye anymore. How dare you blame me for your own mistakes and choices? It's one thing to commit a sin, then it takes it to a whole new level when you blame others for what you did. It happens. Again and again. I can never trust you ever again. And I'm not sure I am even sorry.

How dare you.